I just wanted to check in since I have not been around for a while. I needed some time to take this all in. The more I forget about all of this, the more my nerve damage seems to heal. Like I told someone in the Hub, I think most of this is mental. It is kind of like when you think hard about your back itching... just think about it long and hard and say it over and over, that your back itches. Well, eventually it starts to itch. It is like your mind zooms in on a spot on your back that itches. I think a lot of the symptoms are worse because we are consumed by it. The past week I have not checked my Journal or Hub and my nerve damage feels a lot better.
My Gyno said that she had to get the other doctors to sign off on the test results, for my Western Blot, and she would call me when they are ready to be picked up. Work was a nightmare this week, so I have not had the chance to hound her about not calling me back. I will call her and tell her to send the results to me. I will scan and post it as soon as I have it in my hands.
So I had sex the other night... I was messing with this girl since October, right when I was diagnosed. I never let her touch me down south, and always made excuses so she wouldn't get mad about it. Well, she finally got her shot the other night. I guess it was worth the wait. LOL I am still so freaking scared that for some reason Resolve, the product not the company, did something to alter my results... to make me look cured. I know it is not true, but I cannot help but to be so nervous. She is such a good friend to me... I guess I still have not accepted that I am cured.
I guess I will end this post by saying thank you to everyone who sent me emails thanking me for Blogging my journey, and being an inspiration to them. It really means a lot to me. For those who sent me emails recently, I will email you my response sometime today. I needed a breather from everything.
Be strong and know that there is a cure out there... keep fighting!!!