Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Step 2 Day 3

No new updates today... about to get some rest before I hit the club tonight. WOOOHOOO, PARTY TIME!!!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Step 2 Day 2

Today I continued to have stomach pains, but not as bad as yesterday. I woke up with a few red bumps on my face, but I am hoping that they go away.

Let me say one thing... I am very tingly and have a burning feeling down below. I do not like this nasty feeling at all. I am hoping that Resolve is activating this virus and my immune system is killing it. hmmmmm

Work was extremely stressful today, so I am going to take a steamy hot bubble bath and drink an ice cold beer. I hope tomorrow is better at work because I do not feel good on Step 2 thus far.


Monday, December 29, 2008

Step 2 Day 1

Let me first state that my day off yesterday was not so good. I think I was going through withdrawals from being on Resolve for 25 days. I felt so sick all day.

Anyway, today was horrible as well. After my first two doses, and pretty much all day, my stomach had really bad pains. I ate full meals and have been drinking a lot of water. I also felt like someone kicked me in my back. I think the dose may be to strong for me, since I do not weigh much. I wonder if the doses should be based off your weight. I am going to deal with the pain for 7 days because I want to be cured so bad.

Today someone on the Hub tested NEGATIVE for HSV2 after taking Resolve. This is great news!!! I am going to test on January 21st, the day after I finish Resolve. I just plan on testing to see where my numbers are, and will test again 90 days post Resolve.

Anyway, I am about to take dose 3 and chase it with an ice cold Grolsch...

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Day Of Rest

After completing Step 1, today is my day of rest. I begin Step 2 tomorrow.

I am going grocery shopping today so that I have food to eat after each dose. Since being single, I do not cook, so this step is going to be interesting to me. I usually eat a muffin or something for breakfast and then a big late lunch. I was told that I have to eat a nice size meal with each dose, so I need to plan a meal for each dose. hmmmmm

I am trying to not let HSV define me. I am trying to continue the things that I have done since finding out that I have HSV (besides sex of course). I always went out on dates and did whatever I wanted, so I am trying to continue that. It is rather difficult when you are in the heat of the moment, but I have been doing really well not putting myself in the situation that will allow something to happen. I have some impatient girls, in regards to me saying no to having sex with them, so I am hoping that this works. Anyway, I have another date later today, so I will make sure to keep it out in the open and not back at my Condo... =)

I am going to finish my coffee and get ready to begin my day.

I will post another update tomorrow.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Step 1 Day 25

How does that sound... Day 25? I made it through Step 1 with only the Chicken Pox. j/k

Step 1 was not so bad, it was the breakouts that REALLY bothered me. I am still broken out on Day 25, but my face is not to bad. We will see what happens when I start Step 2.

Tomorrow I have a day off, so I will enjoy a few beers and watch the Eagles play the Cowboys in a game we MUST win. GO E-A-G-L-E-S!!!

Monday I start Step 2 and heard that it is really hard on your stomach. I will do more research before starting Step 2... like what juice I should take with it and if I need to take it on a full stomach, or if a Cliff bar is enough to eat with it.

I am not certain if I mentioned it, but I never really get OB's, I just get a minor tingle down below right before and after my cycle. Since taking Resolve, I have not had any tingling down below, besides for the times when I... LOL n/m

Anyway, what was I saying... Oh yeah, well 3 days ago I started getting the tingly feeling down below. That really bothered me, and I am starting to be a little more skeptical whether this is going to work for me or not. I have been maintaining a positive belief in regards to Resolve, but that really made me take a step back. I know it is really early, but it was not expected.

I could see randomly having the tingly down below while taking Resolve, but when I ONLY had the tingly before and after my period before taking Resolve, and then while taking Resolve it occurs the same as before... well that kind of raised an eyebrow.

In conclusion, my symptoms while on Step 1 were:

1. Facial, scalp, chest, and back breakouts (looks like the Chicken Pox)
2. Bloated
3. Tingly down below before my cycle started
4. Runny nose (this exists even on Day 25, but not nearly as bad as the first 2 weeks)

I believe those were the main symptoms, but you can look through previous posts for others.

That is it for Step 1 on Resolve. I am going to get some rest before I head to the club tonight... wish me luck on Step 2 AKA "The Stomach Pain Step"

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Step 1 Day 23

Well my "monthly friend" is a week late, and I assume it is late because of Resolve. Well shit, let me say that it is because of Resolve because there is no way in hell that I could get pregnant. LOL

Prior to Resolve, I would get a little tingly down below before and after my period. Today I started to feel a slight tingle, and I am not really happy about that. It never gets worse, just a slight tingle down below. I was hoping it would not do that before my period this month, but I guess I was wrong. We will see if it remains slight or if Resolve causes it to be full blown. I never had a real outbreak since diagnosed with HSV2, so I am curious what will happen this month.

Other than the tingly down below, which let me state it is very faint, nothing new to report. As of today the symptoms that I have are:

1. Slight tingle down below
2. Runny Nose
3. Bloated
4. Facial, neck, back, and chest breakouts

Tomorrow I am heading back home to ATL, so I will enjoy my 12 hour drive with my dog. =(

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Step 1 Day 22

Today around 8:30pm EST, I felt really sick. My head started to hurt and I felt like I had a fever. I laid down, and after 2 hours I felt a lot better. Not sure if that was Resolve related, but it was right after I took my 3rd dose of 15mls.

I do want to give a tip to anyone who may be considering Resolve... DRINK A LOT OF WATER. I think a lot of my nauseousness and headaches that I have experienced throughout Step 1 may have been related to not drinking enough water. For example, when I felt sick tonight, I drank 2 bottles of water and I laid down. I think the water is what helped.

I have been drinking a lot of water since I have been taking Resolve, but sometimes it doesn't seem like enough. The bad thing is that I have to keep going to the restroom to pee, and that can be a pain when your not at home. Anyway, be prepared to drink a lot of water.

Nothing else to report today, no tingly or anything going on down below... Happy Holidays!!!

This is exactly how I feel while on Step 1:

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Step 1 Day 21

Nothing new to report today... my face looks like shit and I am rather pissed off about it. I know that Resolve has cured me, so I am trying to stay positive. My symptoms thus far:

1. Facial, scalp, chest, and back breakouts.
2. Runny Nose
3. Bloated

These are the only 3 symptoms that I can recall at the moment. I am going to stop using everything on my face and go back to a mild cleanser and moisturizer. I hope the shit gets better soon because I have a date as soon as I get back into town. =)~

4 More Days Until Step 1 Is Complete... Let's hope that I do not have stomach issues like the rest.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Step 1 Day 20

Nothing new to report today... the same symptoms still exist. Tomorrow I begin my 15mls dose, which consist of 5 days, and then I move on to Step 2.

Off to play games with my Niece and Nephew... TTL

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Step 1 Day 19

I am in Philly for the Christmas holiday, so I have not had a chance to post in a few days.

There is nothing new to report. My face, back, chest, and scalp are all broken out again. I really do look like I have the chicken pox. My nose runs a little less now, but my stomach is still really bloated.

Other than that... nothing new to report. Tomorrow is my last day on 13mls, and then I start 15mls for 5 days. Once complete, I get a day rest and then begin step 2.

I will post again tomorrow.


Thursday, December 18, 2008

Step 1 Day 16

Today my stomach felt much better than the previous two days. Also, my face is really clearing up with the alcohol, peroxide, moisturizer, followed by vitamin e oil regimen. I hope that it stays this way.

I increased my dose to 13mls and felt no difference. However, I really wish my bloated stomach would go down. It really hurts and is making me feel soooo fat!!!

This morning I noticed something rather interesting. My taste buds are very sensitive today, and I mean this in a good way. I think all of the toxins leaving my body are allowing me to really taste the things that I eat. It is really cool!!! Also, I did laundry the other day and I was talking to one of my g/f's on the phone and I kept smelling my towels and admiring how good they smelled. My g/f thought I was weird, but I have bad allergies and I can finally smell things really well. My taste and smell are excellent thanks to Resolve.

On the bad side, I think Resolve is making me gain weight, and you would think a detox would help you loose weight. I only weigh 112lbs, so I am at the perfect weight for my size. However, Resolve requires you to eat before each dose. I am single, so I usually only eat a small breakfast and a huge lunch, and nothing for dinner. I may have some fruit or something for dinner, but that is really it. Now that I am on Resolve, I have to eat 3 nice size meals a day and I feel like I am eating even when I am not hungry.

That is it for my Resolve update today. Let me not forget to mention my wonderful news...

I stated a few posts ago that the girl that infected me with HSV also has HPV. Well, I got a Pap done and an HPV test before Thanksgiving and just got my test results back today. My Gyno called and said that my Pap was normal, and my HPV test was Negative. I am so relieved and can finally sleep at night. What great news before the holidays!!!

Have a wonderful evening!!!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Step 1 Day 15

Once again, I had the nauseous feeling all day... and no I am not pregnant. Talk about a miracle!!!

I know that my "monthly friend" is suppose to arrive in another week, so maybe it doesn't like Resolve. Thanks you two for battling!!!

I have noticed that my face is clearing up and my nose doesn't run as often. If I could get rid of the nauseous feeling and the extreme bloatiness, I would feel pretty good.

Tomorrow I start my 13mls dose. I am hoping that my body reacts the same, and the symptoms do not get worse as the doses increase.

I think all the salts in the minerals is making my stomach really bloated. I feel like a overly inflated balloon!!! =(

11 more days until I begin Step 2 (note that there is a day rest in between each step), and many more, which I do not want to count, until I am finished with Resolve. Once I finish Step 2, or maybe Step 3 I have not decided yet, I am going to test to see where my numbers are at.

I was diagnosed with HSV2 and my number was a 1.70, which is really low. Also, I only had it for like 3-4 months so the odds are in my favor.

Off to relax in hopes of a better day tomorrow...


Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Step 1 Day 14

Nothing new to report today... just the same ugly symptoms.

After my 2nd dose, I felt really nauseous and extremely bloated. It is 9pm EST and I still feel the same way. My face is still a war zone!!! My nose does not run as much, but it still tends to drip after each dose. Other than that, nothing much going on.

I cannot wait to finish Step 1 and move on to the stomach pain that Step 2 causes... off to tend to my company... Guitar Hero Contest!!!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Step 1 Day 13

With each dose that I have taken today, my mouth continuously salivates. This seems to last for several hours. Additionally, my face, neck, scalp, and back are still breaking out. My face has one large bump that looks like Mt. Everest!!! I started the alcohol, peroxide, moisturizer, followed by Vitamin E Oil on the large bumps. I really hope that this works for me.

I am still bloated and my nose continues to run. My glands under my arm pits, extending across the top of my breasts, feel really hard and swollen. Other than that, no complaints.

I do want to mention, for those who are not familiar with Resolve, how you take your doses. For Step 1 you start with 4mls of the minerals, three times a day (after a meal). Every 5 days you increase by 3mls until you hit 13mls, after 13mls you increase to 15mls... which is a total of 25 days for Step 1.

After the 25 days, you take one day of rest, and then move on to Step 2 and then Step 3. Currently I am on Step 1 Day 13... 12 more days left on Step 1.

Resolve provides you with a little beaker. You fill the mineral solution into the beaker to whatever mls you are taking. They say to dilute it, but I just take it like I would a shot of vodka. I then pour a little distilled water in the beaker to catch any remaining minerals, and take another shot. I typically follow up with a glass of water. Roughly an hour later, I drink Martinelli's all natural apple juice. This procedure is done after a meal 3 times a day.

That is it for Day 13. I am hoping that my glands do not continue to swell, and it is just a one time symptom. Have a nice evening...

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Step 1 Day 12

This update is for yesterday and today.

Yesterday I woke up still feeling very nauseous. I started my 10mls dose and did not have any new symptoms. My face is really broken out now and my back looks like that candy from back in the day... the little candy dots on the white paper. I am not sure if you know what I am referring to, but my back looks like I have the chicken pox.

I have this really big bump on my right cheek and I tried to squeeze it, even though it does not have a head, and it wouldn't budge. Their like swollen boils or something. That was yesterday, so this morning when I woke up, that bump is just as big but now my ear on that side is a little swollen. I think the infection inside may have traveled to my ear. My suggestion to everyone is to leave them alone unless they are ready to be popped.

My nauseous feeling went away late yesterday, and I hope it remains gone. That was not fun at all, and it caused me to miss my club night on Saturday.

I still feel really run down, but I am more concerned with these bumps. Yesterday someone recommended to apply tooth paste on the bumps. But you can only use that old school all white paste type. I put it on the few spots and then for some reason got carried away and just smeared it all over my face. LOL I looked like I had a mask on, but then the bad thing is that it started burning from the mint. In conclusion, it did not really do much. Maybe I needed to leave it on a little bit longer.

Oh yeah, I do not want to forget to mention that yesterday when I woke up, my tingly feeling was gone. I have had that same tingly feeling down below for like a month or so. No bumps or anything associated with it, just tingly. I think that is a really good sign!

So to recap my symptoms as of today...

1. Runny Nose
2. Bumps on my face, scalp, neck, and back (they are very sore hard bumps)
3. Bloated
4. Right ear loop is swollen

I do want to make a note of this in hopes of it helping someone else. Someone posted on the Hub a recommendation from Resolve on the bumps. Here is what they said you can do. I am going to try this today and will let you know if it works.

Using the solutions from step 3, mix 7 drops of bottle A and 5ml of bottle B and place it on your bumps. It is suppose to help the bumps heal faster.

That is it for this morning. If anything new occurs, I will post later on tonight. If not, I will post an update tomorrow.


Friday, December 12, 2008

Step 1 Day 10

There are no new issues to report today.

I do want to mention that last night, around 11:30pm, I started to feel really nauseous. I was hoping that it would pass, but I felt the same way all day today. I know that the flu is going around at work, so I am not certain if it is the flu or from Resolve.

I feel really run down today. I am not going out to the club tonight, so hopefully a good nights rest will help.

I have two sore bumps on each cheek, and I hope that is all that I get on my face. I can handle anywhere, but please, not my face!

Tomorrow I increase my Step 1 dosage to 10mls.

That is it for today... no drama in Fighter-Land today. LOL

I am off to take a hot bubble bath, and watch Iron Man on DVD. Have a wonderful evening!!!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Step 1 Day 9

I feel a lot better, emotionally, today than I did yesterday. I forgot that I had a video, yes that kind of video, of my ex g/f and I. Well, I just had to give her a little reminder that I still have it. *evil smile*

So far she has not said a word to me, and has not told anyone about me having HSV. That video may have saved my reputation... I am so proud of myself for making it. I think I should do it more often! LOL

Several days ago Nevada, from the Hub, took a second HSV test to validate that his results from the first negative test were indeed NEGATIVE. His test results were NEGATIVE, for a second time! This is the best news that I have heard all week. I really hope that Resolve works for me too. If you would like to see his test results, go to this link and type in the pin 214191-5231988:

Additionally, someone else (Trying to Cope) tested NEGATIVE today for HSV2. She has both HSV1 and HSV2, and her HSV2 was negative.

Note: you are suppose to wait 90 days before getting tested, and she has not hit her 90 day mark. She will test again after her 90 day post resolve mark, and hopefully her HSV1 will be gone as well. She used the same company as Nevada for her testing, and her pin is 467302-1779328.

I have no new symptoms to report... just the same symptoms that I have posted yesterday.

The few bumps on my face are the kind of bumps that get really red and sore. They are not like a typical bump in which you pop and they go away. These do not have a head to pop, their just red and swollen. This sounds so gross (sorry for the details), but I only have a few so it is not to bad. I just hope that it stays this way and I only have one here and there.

My back is still broken out; However, I am OK with that because I can hide it easily. I just have to remember not to ask anyone for a back scratch. HAHA

I did want to point something out that I have never said in my journal. The girl that infected me with HSV2 also informed me that she has HPV, and got cervical cancer from it. She caught it early and the laser surgery went well.

I had a pap smear and an HPV test before Thanksgiving and have been at the edge of my seat waiting for my results. This nasty b@tch could have given me both HSV2 and HPV!

I have been so stressed out over this and over my ex g/f trying to exploit that I have HSV2. I hope that by not getting a call from my Gyno by now, that my test results are normal. When I took my STD tests, I was called a week later with my positive results. I will continue to call into the lab results line and pray that I do not have it.

I had a few questions that I raised earlier in the Hub and decided to email Resolve to find out the true answers. Below are my questions along with the answers that Resolve provided me with.

1. Is it OK to drink alcohol (mainly beer and vodka) while on Resolve?Yes you can drink alcohol but remember you are doing a detox and it is best to drink in moderation.

2. I have an appointment, which I scheduled a month ago, to get a new tattoo sleeve. Is it OK to get a tattoo while on Resolve?Yes you can get a tattoo

3. If I have HSV2, Genital, is it OK to kiss someone who DOES NOT have HSV while on Resolve?
Yes you can kiss someone but you could experience breakouts in your mouth if you have been a dormant carrier of HSV1 so be aware this could happen if so you do not want to kiss anyone. Also be aware you can alway catch HSV 1 from kissing.

4. Lastly, do you know what is in the pills that were taking?
The pills are similar to step 1 just in capsule form.

Downing my last shot for the evening... can someone pass me another tissue? LOL

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Step 1 Day 8 - Dose 3

Well, I had the worse day of my life today... thanks to having HSV2.

My ex g/f found out that I am dating again (of course no sex) and she got so angry that she is threatening to tell everyone about me having HSV.

I guess sometimes it doesn't pay to tell someone you love the truth. When I found out 2 months ago that I had HSV2, we were living together. So, like any human being who has a heart would do, I told her about my positive test results and I paid for her take a complete STD test.

Her test came back negative and she left me right away. Now that I am dating again, she wants to continue to control me. I know how jealous she is so I am pretty certain that she will tell all of my friends, and the girls that I am dating, as she said she would.

She said the most hateful things to me... this is a clear example of why I would never go public if I am cured. People think of people with HSV as thrashy, dirty, slutty, and many other names... which I was called today by her.

The sad thing is that I caught it from someone I knew for 10 years who never told me that she had it.

As far as Resolve goes... today I had no new issues. Let me outline the symptoms that I currently have:

1. Facial, scalp, and back breakouts (my cyclops bump is almost completely gone)
2. Still tingly down below, but manageable
3. Slight headache, but that could be because I sit at my computer all day at work.
4. Very Bloated
5. Runny Nose, but not as bad as the first 5 days. Once I increased the dosage to 7ml, my nose has not been as runny. I guess that will save me a few bucks on tissues!

That is my story for today. Sorry if I sound negative, but I feel like HSV has defeated me...

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Step 1 Day 7 - Dose 3

I have no new symptoms to report today. I still get that watery feeling in my mouth and often feel a little nauseous.

My huge cyclops bump on the center on my forehead is slowly fading. Also, I still have that tingly feeling down below, but it is manageable.

A few days ago I submitted a post about an issue that I was not sure how to handle. The one about the girl I am dating wanting to spend this weekend with me. Well, good news is that I told her about me doing an intense detox and how I wanted to wait until after the detox is complete before having sex again.

Resolve better work!!! This girl is already counting down the days when this shit is complete. LOL

Downing my last 7ml shot for the day... following up with a tissue for my runny nose.

I found this hilarious pic online and thought I would share it with you. I need to invest in one of these. LMAO

Monday, December 8, 2008

Step 1 Day 6 - Dose 2

I have taken my second dose for today and there is nothing new to report. I still have that throw up feeling, but I continue to mask it by drinking a lot of water.

My Gyno called me back and said that my HSV2 test results showed me at a 1.70, which seems low compared to other numbers people have posted in the Hub. I asked her to mail me a copy so that when I test NEGATIVE in January (I am trying to be positive) I have proof of my numbers before Resolve and after. Remember, in order to test negative for HSV, you will need a <.90. I am eager to see if my numbers drop after using Resolve.

If there is anyone out there who would like to use me as research, I will be more than happy to take a blood test after each Step. I would love to see what the numbers show as I continue to take Resolve... of course you will be paying for the blood tests. LOL

Step 1 Day 6 - Dose 1

My remaining doses yesterday were fine... no new issues to report.

Today I have increased my dosage to 7ml. I was a little worried about increasing my dose because I am only 112 lbs, and I wasn't sure how it would affect my body. I am surprised that the dosage doesn't correspond to body weight. A person 300 lb person takes the same dosage as me. HMMMMM

Anyway, so far I am OK. My mouth feels a little watery, and it is beginning to bother me. It feels kind of like that feeling you get right before you are going to throw up, yet it has lasted for several hours now. I am going to lunch now, so we will see if eating lunch helps. I have not heard anyone else complain of this symptom, so maybe it is just me.

I was expecting today's dose to increase the flow from my waterfall (my nose), and thus far it has not. I hope my runny nose symptom is gone. However, I would rather that than back pains or serious facial breakouts that I have heard others have had.

I have called my Gyno today and requested a copy of my Positive test results. I would like to have my exact numbers so that when I test on January 21st, the day after I complete my treatment, I can see if my numbers dropped at all. I am not expecting to test Negative because I have not waited the full 90 days, but I think that my numbers should drop, and if they do then I know something positive is going on in my body. Also, remember that my numbers were low since I only had HSV2 for 2-3 months, so who knows I may be Negative before my 90 day mark. I will post my numbers when my Gyno calls me back.

Off to lunch to try and eliminate this throw-up feeling.... Oh let me not forget, my Cyclops bump in the center of my forehead is disolving. I hope I didn't jinx it!!!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Step 1 Day 5 - Dose 1

I did not get a chance to post for my other doses yesterday. I had no issues, other than what I have mentioned before. I went out to the club last night and had 6 beers, and had no weird symptoms from the alcohol. My nose did not run while I was there either, so that was a plus.

This morning I woke up and felt like shit. I believe it is just a hangover, and not related to the minerals. People were smoking in the club last night, and I am not a smoker, so when I woke up this morning, my nose was burning. I went from the waterfall nose to the dry burning nose. I think the waterfall may be more welcoming for me than how I feel right now. I am hoping that when I take my next dose it will add some moisture.

My sex drive was fine yesterday after the second dose. Thus far it seems like it is every other day... or maybe it is all in my head. LOL I will continue to monitor that.

Last night after I showered and was getting ready to go out, I noticed some bumps in different places on my body. I am assuming it is from Resolve, because I do not breakout like that. My face is still breaking out. I have one right in the middle of my freaking forehead. I look like the damn Cyclops. ERRRRRRRRR It is not Halloween dammit! Also, I noticed a big bump on the back of my head. I was washing my hair last night and felt it. Luckily my hair is long so no one will see it. I just have to be careful not to brush my hair to hard. OWTCHHH

I have been feeling a little tingly down below since using Resolve, but it is minor so I have not really said much about it. This is common while taking Resolve.

So I said in a previous post that I have been dating again. I have a slight problem... I have given every excuse in the world why I won't sleep with this girl. It has been working, and also it helps that she lives a little far from me. My problem is that next weekend she will be around where I live all weekend and she keeps saying how excited she is and that she wants to stay at my place. I am just dating her, along with some other girls, so we are not at a serious point where I would tell her about my HSV. I will only tell someone who I can see as a potential committed partner, and I do not see her as that. I just want to play the field until Ms. Right comes along. I guess I need to start thinking about how I want to handle this, because I would never allow anything to happen unless I know I am clean. If Resolve does work, I should be done on January 20th. I am going to test right away and compare the numbers. Whether I test positive or negative, I only had HSV for like 2 months, so I should see a drop in numbers. I will then take another test, unless I test Negative, on my 90 day mark.

Well, I am off to the bar to watch my football team win today.

Another shot down... yukkkkk!!!

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Step 1 Day 4 - Dose 1

This morning I woke up in such a great mood. Besides the runny nose and the bumps on my face, I really like the way I feel on Resolve (SO FAR THAT IS). I feel energized, and I have been sleeping really well.

This morning I took my normal shot after I ate a Nutri Grain bar. I followed up with a Grande Starbucks Pike Place blend coffee, of course with extra cream and extra sugar. =)

My nose continues to flow like a river. I am going to the club tonight so I hope that I am not dancing with someone and it starts to flow. LOL How attractive!!!

My face is still breaking out, but it is manageable. I pray it doesn't get any worse. Majority of the bumps are on my forehead, so I will continue to wear my beanie hat. Thank goodness it is winter time! Could you imagine me wearing a beanie hat in the summer. LOL People will think... why the hell is she wearing that hot ass hat in the summer. (giggle)

I read yesterday that Nevada tested NEGATIVE for HSV, after completing the Resolve treatment. I really hope that Nevada is legit and is not someone who works for Resolve in an attempt to get our hopes up. If you would like to see his test results go to this link and enter Nevada's pin# 564197-8731054.

On Monday Ava will get her test results back. If she tests Negative, we know that Resolve is the real deal. I am so anxious, but I am nervous that these people are not real.

Since finding out about my HSV, I have a hard time trusting anyone. I thought I knew this woman, after 10 years who would think otherwise. I guess I was wrong... look at what she did to me. I would never have imagined "me" getting HSV, especially from her.

I was the star athlete; the funny class clown with a lot of friends. The clean, germ-a-phob who cares a great deal about her appearance. The girl who dresses really cool, and should consider starting her own clothing label. The one who has girls throwing themselves at her, and mainly just eager to be around her. I am not being conceited, I am just being real here.

I guess this is a wakeup call me for. It can happen to anyone. I talk a lot about how bad I want to have sex, and how tempted I am, but in reality I have learned my lesson.

If Resolve cures me, I will start requiring STD test results before sleeping with anyone. HAHA OK, maybe I am exaggerating a little, but what else is one to do these days? Could you imagine being in the heat of the moment and saying... ummm can I see your papers. LOL She will look at me like WTF are you talking about. (giggling)

OK, I am being silly again, but I need to figure out a plan because if Resolve cures me, I do not want to be in a situation like this again.

In order to cope with this virus, I laugh about it and joke around, but truly it is destroying me inside. However, I am not going to let HSV win. I started dating again, despite not being able to have sex. Another way that I cope with HSV is by shopping. LOL When I get sad I go to the mall and buy new clothes. At least I look good on the outside, since the inside is diseased! OK, I feel sad now... off to the mall. =)

Blowing my runny nose as I publish this post...

Friday, December 5, 2008

Step 1 Day 3

I had no major issues today. My nose will not stop running... errrr I think I am going to strap a sheet to my nostrils. LOL

My sex drive sky rocketed after the second dose again. I am not sure what the difference with the first and second dose is, but this is not good.

No headaches or backaches or anything to report.

It is Friday, so I will make this short. I will post again tomorrow... party time tomorrow!!! Woohooooo

Another day down... off to blow my nose again.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Step 1 - Day 2

Today was a great day for me. I had no cramps today, and my sex drive seemed like it was back to normal. =)

The only symptoms thus far is my runny nose, which I forgot to mention yesterday. I went and bought some Puffs with lotion so my nose doesn't get raw. I mean gesh, every 5 minutes I am blowing my nose. My throat is scratchy, which is not so bad because every time a girl calls me she likes it. HAHA OK, I will behave today.

Let's see... any other symptoms? Ummmm Oh yeah, I have a few red spots on my face, and I am really worried about that. Please do not let my face break out. The red spots are on my forehead so I wore my knit beanie hat all day. Good way to hide that... (evil laugh)

I did notice that I seem really run down today. It is rainy here so maybe it is the weather. I will keep an eye on that. Not that I can do anything about it, but I guess I will keep an eye on it.

I also noticed that I use the bathroom more than I usually do. I have no issues in that department, so I hope that doesn't continue to increase. That is all I need, issues with my ass!!! LOL

Other than that... I had a great day today. Like the band "Flyleaf" says... "I'm Alive!"

Day two down... damn, I do not even want to count. Off to blow my nose again... how attractive!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Step 1 - Day 1

Day 1 -

Today I woke up with a lot of anxiety. I am not the kind of person who likes to take medicine or anything that is not in the form of food. I was paranoid that I would have a reaction to one of the minerals or I would have severe diarrhea. That sounds gross, but I heard some nasty stories. Moving off the shit subject... LOL

So, my first dose... how gross!!! I felt like I put a big straw in the swimming pool and started sipping away. Luckily it was only a 4ml dose. I felt fine, but 45 minutes later I had severe cramps. It felt like I had to shit, but I really didn't have to. It only lasted for 5 minutes and then I was fine. Also, all day I noticed that I had a slight headache. It could be due to the lack of sleep, but I am not 100% sure. I will monitor the headaches to see if it was a coincidence or not. I ate a Nutri Grain bar and a bowl of fruit before taking my first dose. I later had a Grande Starbucks coffee, some Martinelli's apple juice, and several bottles of water. No issues...

My second and third doses were taken after a meal. There were no issues to report. No cramps either. I did notice a new bump on my head. I am going to make myself breakout stressing over breaking out... how does that sound? LOL Breathe, Breathe... relax!!! I do want to mention that after my second dose my sex drive sky rocketed. I already have a high sex drive, so I pray these minerals are not going to increase what already seems to be a problem. I will leave it at that...

I have read all of the negativity in the hub ( and decided to give this a shot regardless of what others say about it being a scam. Today was my first day using Resolve and I am already anxious for the treatment to be over with. I have started dating again and think maybe I am not ready yet. I cut my ties with the other girls when I first found out about my "Toxic" disease, and lately have found myself eager to date again. The bad thing is that women throw themselves at me and I am scared I may get tempted. Last night I had diner with someone and she wanted more than a kiss. I had to stop her, which was really difficult for me. I am praying this stuff works because I am only on day 1 and the temptation is making me go insane. As I stated earlier, my sex drive sky rocketed after my second dose. This is really bad... LOL I felt like a 16 year old boy locked in a room with a bunch of sexy chics. HAHA Let's see if this continues... maybe it is just a coincidence. Pray with me... (giggling)