Saturday, January 17, 2009

Step 3 Day 12

My lip looks worse today. It looks like a damn diaper rash on my top lip. It even spread to the right side of my top lip. I really pray that this is not Herpes because I only have HSV2...

This morning and this evening I soaked my lips in some hot salt water. It really seems to help, but it has not gone away yet. It is not that noticeable to others, so if it stays like this, then I can handle it. I am just nervous it will get worse and become some huge massive crusty mess on my lips... how attractive!!! I also bought some stuff for a cold sore that you apply only one time, so I will put that on tonight and see how it looks in the morning.

My tingly is so mild that I forget it is there most of the day. No bumps or blisters or anything gross, just a slight tingle down below that has been there since Step 2.

I canceled my date tonight because I am so self conscious with my lip. That is all I need is for my date to sit there and stare at it all night. How MF embarrassing!!!

I have been debating on whether or not to take the 4 day extension. I know in the back of my mind that I would like to know that I did everything possible to rid myself from this virus, on the other hand, I still get very nauseous with my morning dose. I cannot explain how sick I feel after taking my morning dose. Also going 4-6 times a day is really taking a toll on me. I am so scared of what other symptoms will occur as the dose increases with the 4 day extension. So I decided to email Resolve and see what they say. I will update my Journal tomorrow with what they recommend. I really hope that I do not have to do the 4 day extension, but if they suggest it, I will do whatever possible to become H-Free!

Off to get some rest now...

2 comments:

AbJ said...

Try Abreva for your lips. It makes it go away so much faster.

Fighter said...

Thanks, I got some today at the drug store. It looks like an allergic reaction... it itches. I will try that anyway. It does look like it is going away though. We will see...